I had a fun new loft in a great area of Minneapolis, I had plans to move to California.
I didn't have any plans for kids.
I thought of myself as "anti kid" almost. I didn't know how to talk to them.
I didn't know how to play with them. I didn't know what went through their minds - and that scared me a bit.
But then... life happened.
And I found out I was gonna be a Momma.
I can't imagine my life now without my little bundle of love.
As most Mom's will agree, the second they are in your life... the game changes.
I wasn't the type of Mom that loved being woken up in the middle of the night for feedings.
I wanted to sleep.
I wasn't the Mom that could sit and rock her baby for hours and hours while he slept in my arms.
That's what cribs were for, I wanted to sleep, not stare.
But that's okay with me.
I haven't known what to do in every situation.
That's why a phone call to my Mom who was a nurse, was oh so handy.
I don't have all the answers, and I'm a firm believer either do the books.
I know I give in too easy at times, just because I'd rather see him smile then crying.
I've been a Momma for 3 years but already feels like a lifetime.
There's moments that only a Momma (and Daddy) have that they'll cherish forever. I would have never understood why these moments would mean so much before the game changed.
I'll always remember...
your cry as a baby being that of a pterodactyl
laying on the floor next to you as your whole days were spent doing tummy time
the ways you've studied our mouths since day one trying to understand what we're saying
the unexpected hugs and kisses from you
the first time I saw you try to write your letters
I've been a Mom for 3 and half years and never did I expect to learn what I have from someone so young.
He has taught me patience.
How to be creative and think on my feet.
How to focus all my attention on one tiny person.
How to let go of the small things.
How to be stronger.
How playing with a 3 year old can be more fun than I ever imagined.
So thanks little one, Thank you Jackson for being you, and making me become a better person.
Happy Momma's Day To Me and Momma's everywhere!