Sunday, May 13, 2012

Happy Momma's Day!


Mommahood came unexpected to me.  I was newly graduated from college, I had recently returned from an impromptu backpack trip to France and Praque.  I had two amazing internships at a record label and a fashion magazine while working two other jobs too.
I had a fun new loft in a great area of Minneapolis, I had plans to move to California.
I didn't have any plans for kids.
I thought of myself as "anti kid" almost.  I didn't know how to talk to them.
I didn't know how to play with them.  I didn't know what went through their minds - and that scared me a bit.

But then... life happened.

And I found out I was gonna be a Momma.

I can't imagine my life now without my little bundle of love.
As most Mom's will agree, the second they are in your life... the game changes.

I wasn't the type of Mom that loved being woken up in the middle of the night for feedings.
I wanted to sleep.
I wasn't the Mom that could sit and rock her baby for hours and hours while he slept in my arms.
That's what cribs were for, I wanted to sleep, not stare.
I didn't sing to him until he fell asleep in my arms..... I said things like sssshhhhh go sleepy, and why won't you sleep little one, and stop crying, sleep it's better for you!

But that's okay with me. 

I haven't known what to do in every situation.
That's why a phone call to my Mom who was a nurse, was oh so handy.
I don't have all the answers, and I'm a firm believer either do the books.
I know I give in too easy at times, just because I'd rather see him smile then crying.

I've been a Momma for 3 years but already feels like a lifetime.

There's moments that only a Momma (and Daddy) have that they'll cherish forever.  I would have never understood why these moments would mean so much before the game changed.

I'll always remember...
the little movements you did when you were rooting (a daddy and momma personal favorite)
your cry as a baby being that of a pterodactyl
laying on the floor next to you as your whole days were spent doing tummy time
the ways you've studied our mouths since day one trying to understand what we're saying
the way you hold onto Monkey's tail when you're tired, sad, or not feeling well
how a kiss from Momma can make any booboo feel better
the unexpected hugs and kisses from you
the first time I saw you try to write your letters

I've been a Mom for 3 and half years and never did I expect to learn what I have from someone so young.
He has taught me patience.
How to love more than I knew I could.
How to be a better person.
How to be creative and think on my feet.
How to focus all my attention on one tiny person.
How to let go of the small things.
How to be stronger.
How playing with a 3 year old can be more fun than I ever imagined.

So thanks little one, Thank you Jackson for being you, and making me become a better person.
Happy Momma's Day To Me and Momma's everywhere! 
Including my very wonderful Momma and Mother in Law!

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6 comments :

  1. Happy Mothers Pam!! Miss you guys like crazy!

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    1. Miss you guys too!!!! Happy Mother's Day!

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  2. I absolutely loved this post, Pam! And I totally get it - I'd rather sleep too, and that's ok!!

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  3. Hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day. Mine was great!

    I am new to this blogging stuff. A blog I read alot nominated me for the “Versatile Blogger award”. I had to choose 15 blogs that I discovered and follow often. Yours was on the top of my list. Please go check it out!

    http://nanasrcool-nanasrcoolandlovetoquilt.blogspot.com/2012/05/versatile-blog-award.html

    I know you are probably very very busy and I just wanted those blogs that inspire me so much to know that I appreciate all their hard work and thank them for teaching me so much!

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